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Lack of trust [11 Oct 2006|07:52am]

Originally published at Nadya De Angelis. You can comment here or there.

Last night B rang, he had read this blog of mine and sounded a bit disappointed. One of my biggest problems is that I am too much concerned about hiding my feelings, whatever they are. There is a sort of switch in my mind: if something is real, if something disturbs me, I’d rather keep it as far from people as possible. Even if it’s something nice. Why? Because sincerity makes me vulnerable. Why does it make me vulnerable? What am I afraid of?

My ability to hide feelings is perfect. You never know if I’m upset by something or my stomach hurts (unless I want you to know) - I always behave myself. Still, people find me interesting and funny. It means, that somehow my true ego manages to come out??

What if I hadn’t been hiding the feelings???

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Lack of trust [11 Oct 2006|07:52am]

Last night B rang, he had read this blog of mine and sounded a bit disappointed. One of my biggest problems is that I am too much concerned about hiding my feelings, whatever they are. There is a sort of switch in my mind: if something is real, if something disturbs me, I’d rather keep it as far from people as possible. Even if it’s something nice. Why? Because sincerity makes me vulnerable. Why does it make me vulnerable? What am I afraid of?

My ability to hide feelings is perfect. You never know if I’m upset by something or my stomach hurts (unless I want you to know) - I always behave myself. Still, people find me interesting and funny. It means, that somehow my true ego manages to come out??

What if I hadn’t been hiding the feelings???

Опубликовано в блоге Nadya De Angelis.

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Hugs, [11 Oct 2006|10:43am]

Originally published at Nadya De Angelis. You can comment here or there.

I’ve never understood them. I mean - not sexual, but, you know. Emotional. When somebody says to you - “Oh, look, my father’s just died”, or “I’ve lost my purse”, or “Dude, I’m gay” -

- and you are supposed to reply “OH BABY!” -

- and open your arms -

- and you embrace each other crying or pretending to be crying -

- keeping saying “OH BABY! I’M SO SORRY!” -

if this is not a nightmare, then what is?

Must be a cultural difference. Also, I don’t like this expression, “I’m sorry” because it can mean two things, mixed in English but very different in Russian: (1) “I am ashamed, I did something wrong and regret it”, (2) “I feel pity for you”.

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Hugs, [11 Oct 2006|10:43am]

I’ve never understood them. I mean - not sexual, but, you know. Emotional. When somebody says to you - “Oh, look, my father’s just died”, or “I’ve lost my purse”, or “Dude, I’m gay” -

- and you are supposed to reply “OH BABY!” -

- and open your arms -

- and you embrace each other crying or pretending to be crying -

- keeping saying “OH BABY! I’M SO SORRY!” -

if this is not a nightmare, then what is?

Must be a cultural difference. Also, I don’t like this expression, “I’m sorry” because it can mean two things, mixed in English but very different in Russian: (1) “I am ashamed, I did something wrong and regret it”, (2) “I feel pity for you”.

Опубликовано в блоге Nadya De Angelis.

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Гиперболоид инженера Гарина [11 Oct 2006|06:53pm]
Что такое "Версия головы Гонгадзе"?
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